talking about jie's baby... i suddenly remembered the day when little girl eudora came to us... lol thinking back, was quite fortunate and feeling quite bad too... as usual if i am stress or something happened which is our of my level to understand, something like shock or the feeling like totally lost, i tend do things very very out of the normal... in simple, do weird things.


and yea... that time was still in ite and she was still with me... rushing down to mount avernier if i'm not wrong... after training... cox as usual fri was a compulsory training day n cant run... 23/5/08... so i thk i was very kan chiong, rushed down... got e msg of the birth like at 3pm? but can only get to go off at 6pm... so... -_-


den i thk i scolded u for walking slow i thk... wrong number 1... but eh, its still not the worse hor... ok den i forgot what happened again, but i don thk u were unreasonable or anything... but i dono y i said this shitty words... i love my niece and she is of my ultimate priority... i'll defend her even if u get in e way...


haix thking about this, haix... i seriously dono why did i say this. and from wat i rmb, u didnt rebuke back but quietly listened... yes i rmb very clearly e times when it occurs to me... seriously i dont handle shock cases very well when it occurs on me... really doing weird stuff...


coming to think clearly, why did i say those words? i have defended u against mummy n family's criticism when u 1st started with me and before they knew u better... and have defended u again mummy n others even now when they say about u... my temper u know they know.. they try anything funny against the things i hold dear, they'll get it. inculsive if its my parents against me.


it was all my fault seriously. and this is what i explained to them. mum, aunts, kor, jie.


if u read this, i'd feel better.. cox i finally let this off... always thk of this matter i'll feel fucked up.


i'm sorry