very stupid and useless

Ok let's start from the top down to the bottom.. The moment i open my eyes today i got scolded.. cox i wake up late and mum is nagging i hog the toilet.. please.. its usual timing.. only she early wake up.. geared up, contact lenses, sports gear on.. becox i'm going training after school today.. and my bag is damn heavy.. bow+lappy+adaptor, must squeeze with the crowd on the bus... -_-

Today's enterprise was again fairly easy... i got a good source again.. i merely changed the names.. haha... anyways today the malays are bycotting della... come at 2nd meeting, walked out when she's saying 6th P... when della ask them to present, they said dont want and didnt.. power man...

ok back to the day.. our team was rather weird today.. i was feeling down so i didnt talk much... ansel looking at his own stuff and left ken and doreen.. i dont really wanna know what happened, but doreen is pretty stressed out in recent days... as usual we left the class for toilet break in our guy clique.. den come back, doreen walked out of the class... less then 5 words, she broke into tears..

she walked right infront of me crying.. sorry girl.. i know i should have lent you a shoulder and consoled you.. but i really dont know what should i do at that moment.. so i let you passed.. it was an akward moment.. more over my mood aint as usual this morning.. quite bad..
Hope you are ok now.. feel free to contact me if you need someone to talk too.. dont coop up ok? You've been a great listener/advisor.. it works both ways.. =)
*after months of teaming with doreen and heart to heart talks, she's joining the ranks of my buddyship*

Ok for lunch time, quite normal.. going back from W6 time, a cockroach zoomed passed right infront of us.. ASS! i hate cockroaches.. those of you who seen before how i react to cockroaches, its our secret ok.. Today the sports sales is still on.. got myself a team RP jacket for only 7 bucks yesterday.. called wendy see if she bought it cox planned to get 1 for her too.. lol

So i perked myself up after lunch... if i dont be high, the team will die.. And again doreen is going crazy of the song 听海.. crazy as in crazy over me singing and irritating her... hahaha... everytime reach the chorus i will like sing it damn ji dong style with actions.. she'll always -_-...... hahaha.. like this den fun ma girl..
di siao doreen and huiling the whole time after that.. haha fun.. at least the class not so dull.. RIGHT DOREEN!

Was supposed to train with year1s and seniors of rp today... waited and waited, walked to sports com.. waited till 4.10pm... i really got no mood le.. walked all the way back to interchange and took 187 home.. I wasted my contacts, sports gear, damn heavy equipements and squeeze with people for nothing..
You're really damn weak and useless EUGENE! what happened to the objective orientated, on task, xiao sa and strong character? now like yi tan lan ni (a pool of waste mud). Who will like you like this? even friends also will start to hate you.. You have to get on with your life... Continue your Singaporean dream.. lol thats crap.

whole day my eyes is irritated man.. my right contacts siao siao.. made me even more tired. and end of the day.. i've found a good friend which may go a long way in life... =)
A quote from saving private RYAN (today's dinner movie), "angels on our shoulders" and "earn it".

*like mum said, i agree god has always been with me.. 1st fall admitting into ite, wendy supported me throughout the 2years.. 2nd fall breakup, i have many many friends advising me and staying with me throughout.. 3rd fall cheat, stanley was there for me and my good friends..
haha i'm always sheltered by love.. friend's love, love's love, family's love and most of all god's love..*


*its still you, whom i ever needed*
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