my dearest, pls read on

i dont mind helping you.. totally dont. money, effort, time, extra mile, anything.


but sometimes please communicate with me ok?? many things i gotta guess becox i do not know and it is not made known to me... when wrong, you scold again. is really a few words so difficult? i feel that i'm damn cheap uh... totally not my character to be cheap you know...


ppl don appreciate, i wont even say another word. will never ever bother again.


but this? again and again... i have said... i only bother the things worthy of me caring... are you worthy? to me, yes. cheap uh.. super cheap. i dono why seriously. 'leh long' no need money one.


you have seen the stubborn side of me and also have seen the easy going side of me.

you have seen the me when your approach is soft and have seen me when your approach is hard. i'm a person who rebel even harder when you use the hard method and i will never ever listen. but when you come in soft: explain nicely, talk peacefully, i will understand.


its easier to let me understand and i will automatically go your way, than to force me to go your way... which will never work. my family have tried close to 21years. never once worked. i guess you know this very well too uh.


but frankly speaking, i'm very very happy to receive ur msg telling me what you feel... finally you tell me after 2 full years... although ur message is of fierce nature, but it did make me smile. =)


after you told me, its acknowledged. but after so long, its my nature or 'habit' to just react than to respond. learn in communications. but once i remember what you've told me, i did try n shut myself from prompting further things that aint important...


i will still ask things that are important.. hope u'll understand and respond. don treat me as cheap ass.


oh ya... both of us are trained under ace archery... both of us are coaches under ace archery... both of us have equal qualifications. but you have more combat experience and know more about forms... for me, lousier as an archer but better as a tuner and equipement setup... both of us are pros... in our own line...


i need your help too... cox besides a tuner, i'm an archer too. and of course, i firstly branched into tuning instead of just shooting, is because of you. I wanted to support you in this sense as u were going further and better. i went further in tuning to fully dedicate this service to you as you advance. now, i need your help too... i'm very weak in form and will seek your advice. i don't look at just anyone's form, i'm very specific as you know i pick and choose.


to me, you're the best. so i only see yours. seriously i also hope you had this mindset of my tuning skills. cox its all learned for you. i dont even bother my stuff most of the times. but take initiative to maintain ur stuff...


for today... i feel so much like asking you to help me see form... touch on where to improve... but i dont dare to ask. for me, i will see for those higher lvl den slowly going down...
you're the standard. for me.


like you see... of all tuning, i only dono how to make string... why? not i cant learn.. is i don't want. you picked up the skill of making string years back, so i totally do not want to learn. i was hoping and i believe i have told you before when we're together...


i only shoot the string you make for me. and you're shooting the bow i've tuned for you. for 2years already, my finger sling have been the way you tied for me... every shot, every training, your effort is there.the string frail like wat alr, i die die dont change.


*and believe it or not. your driver's license photo is still in my wallet, just behind my student pass.*
*and seriously... after 3years i'm still hoping that i'll receive the 1st month's present you've promised me. knitted. can i request as my 21st b.day present?* as to an old friend...*