haix.. dono y don feel too happy this few days.. which means... this blog will be updated more often.. den the main blog..


mental n physical giving me problems.. stomach aint very good dono y sia.. my stomach have always stood up to any test and is the least problematic 1 man.


den also... haix.. this year da gu never host.. we only go back for dinner.. our own family nia.. so sian.. no mood.. she say ah ma die already this year dowan make liao.. she old le.. so... yea.. bo liao..


den next year, ah ma's younger sister oso not hosting le.. say she too old... n her daughters who are of da gu age oso say they cant handle liao.. so next year no more............ die. income confirm drop more den half.. maybe 200 oso don have liao.. dang!


i'm still very confused should i go to ntu ivp competition or not... if i go, i will have problems with family, with job and with everything! i feel like going but there are so many other factors to consider too... not only my own wants.. haix. so complicated. i thk i'll just skip this 1 again..
(if i wan i sure can. its all about mental. but this time... my mental is split into 2.)


haix.. why can frens be so problematic? seriously.. i tot it'll be e least of my worries man.. instead its one of the top most problem 1... haix.. why cant all we just get along uh... old ite side... rp side.. haix... for guang's 1.. can see he still don wanna let go.. but haix... sometimes seeing her happy is worth more den me being happy ba...


like i told dad yesterday... always doing things to make me mad at him.. for wat? ya he feels happy, but do i? no... make me scream at him only.. does it feel good for me? no. does it feel good for him? i'm afraid not too? so why man... is making yourself happy more important than making your loved one feel happy about you?


just for this cny... at least 5 relatives ask me... where is wendy? or is wendy overseas again this year? ....................................................... yea.. its not a 1 person thing.


sometimes giving up something you love or what makes you feel good, although its a sacrifice... but it makes the person you love feel happy. and


its worth the sacrifice.