haix sian la......................


100bucks gone just like this.. in financial situation like this.. i'm so screwed... its been a pretty rough week for me too. made afew important decisions and hope i wont regret when the time comes..


haix.. so tired.. reached home around 5am.. went to zirca with w34p clique.. quite fun though i'm super tired already from the day's training... did a little dancing and drank quite alot... but the most is cab fare.. i spent like 34bucks.. i'm so broke..


training today early in e morning means i can only sleep 3hours.. abit seh seh when wake up.. but no choice ba.. dragged my ass up to sembawang.. i seriously don feel like going.. but today got special ppl come.. so die die oso must go.. lol.


so... traning was shit. haven settle my mistake form, 2 arrows casualty already. can quit archery le lar.. how to solve.. some1 pls tell me... florence tell me the stuff i all know and all try be4 leh... dden i ask lim, he tell me come down to YJC on sat n we will solve it for u... HOW SIA.... i'm sandwiched between florence and lim... haix...


and.. ICA haven call me.. i'm seriously betting all my hopes on e job u noe.. no job, i'm in serious shit. i owe seriously quite alot.


den today like shit lor.. those ppl say wanna stay back shoot after lunch most of them run lor. den i must keep board twice.. although i nv shoot 2nd round.. bastards...


2nd round see abit their form... teach abit yi xiang... not to grip so much on bow hand... pulling hand, finger relax, let scapular pull.. feel the push pull feeling... follow through linear to the jaw, not float or pluck... mental to focus in wind... his grouping did improve.. 1 end all within 8points... den after i walk off to see bj they all, his arrow around e world liao.. guess all of them tired under e grilling weather liao...


but i turned the tiring 2nd round of shooting into a fun-filled session! 3 of them laugh non-stop... if i wan.. i'm good at it.. =)


and haix saying is easy.. i know what to do.. i can show them perfectly on stretch band too... but when it comes to my own bow and arrow, cui. maybe i'm too kan chiong.. scared this scared that. scared arrow drop, scared click too fast. fuck it la.
but i got try not to scared, ka ka come... but still drop. -_-. fuck.


i need to know how to solve it.. please anyone teach me...................


*sometimes its e only way. to be noble.*
seeing is difficult. avoiding is cowardice.
pushing the limits on my mental.
seeing how far i can push, it have already gone beyond anything i experienced before.
hoping... a fool's hope.