haix... how should i start this? let me say that i'm fully aware of what I am doing and what i have said. chiam being good in logical subjects can't possibly do things without thinking?


It all started with hearing unhappy comments from our bros and i really do think that something should be done. I waited for 2 days, nth is being said. But i still hear the bros complaining.. i really do not hope that when we're there already, everybody face black black.. really spoil the whole trip. Since there is time now, let us talk it out and find a solution ba.


BUT... no one wants to start the topic.. hearing things like this i really cant help but do something.. it was totally not my idea. but the 4 of our ideas. So... i did something stupid which is to put everything on the table and talk to you. Using only my own reputation... guess it aint strong enough.. But i still got the message across...


I'm really sorry i caused the trouble in the clique. But i do not want this clique to have ANY hidden feelings to each other. I have anything, i always tell you... if you noticed.


So... i took up all the responsibility of 4 people and talk to you. if you understand my difficulties. Yes, you're one of our own. Yes, we give priority to our own clique 1st..


IF, i am the guy you talk of... i woudnt have said anything... i wouldve go by the flow.. why risk my reputation to talk to you about this? because you're one of my closest fren. although you may not admit on your side. I never lie to this level of friends.


IF, i really gek kao with you... I wont figure out how to order the thing right after you said you want it. I wouldnt have saved on my food and drinks as you have seen, I wanna buy drinks but i save up the little money, just to get this for you. you're not my gf.. but i still did it. knowing i owe alot ppl money le...


IF, i really gek kao... I would think so hard and worked so hard.. to make it my mission to earn you an A.. whenever you're in e same team as me... give u the best to work with... I really dont mind taking nth to present. for you to get your confidence and your grade.


IF, i really gek kao... i wont have told you all those things people did not tell you liao... let ppl do the shit job.. why should i? you know i bo chap all these things i dont care de. Do you really think i'm very calculative to you? if i would, i wont have told you. I would have just keep quiet and continue to hee hee haa haa around you... not troubling about you hating me now le...


It was the common idea of 4. But none wants to talk. I dont mind risking everything for my bros... and most of all, for you. Now they have seen what you really are insisting on, they give in le... I also give in le... but... the responsibility, I one person carry. dont believe? ask andre... andre know my plight... he knows how troubled am i. worrying for you, for the bros, for the clique.


even joey n tang had this idea.


do you understand how i felt when you typed those things in the msn? my sadness? my disappointment? you actually thought i would do something like this to you.. and you really thought it was me.


if you really think I, this kinda fren bu yao ye ba (dowan also can). i really have nothing to say le... you stay in e clique ba. i'll leave.