the shame

Yes when i get back on my feet, i'm swept off again... Today after class 2 people from high management was waiting outside to see me.. Went with them to E1 director's block and yes.. Its something bad...


I have never felt so lousy and shameful since I've found out that I didnt make it to poly but ITE 2years ago... It is always me that bring down the CHIAM family's name.. Always me out of all children... I am the 1st person from Chiam family to be in NA stream, the 1st person to go to ITE and now is also the 1st person to... YES you guessed right. CHEAT.


3 weeks ago UT2 mathematics as usual i wasn't very good at math and somemore i was very very down at that period.. I just glimpsed a couple of answers of Ansel's and yes. I got caught today. I brought ansel, stanley into trouble and disgraced my family. Just 3 simple questions and my honour is down the drain...


Humiliation and almost got myself expelled. Can you imagine that? Can go jump off the building already. The only male decendant of Chiam's is also the worse member. I may well have to repeat this math module next term..


I really need someone by my side now... But with this, I'm not worthy of you... It feels so hard... so shameful and disgrace... Yes its my own doing and i'm regretful of it.. Just a couple of questions... When can you wake up Eugene.. WAKE UP! stop disgracing your family... You're not worthy to bear the surname CHIAM!


*I cant imagine how mum and gu jie(s) will feel when they know about this... i cant bear to see them having sleepless nights over my immature behaviour...*

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